Monday, June 22, 2009

I am a terrible blogger...

Life is busy, and there are some things that just have to be lower on the priority list. For me, blogging is one of those things. Between being a wife and mommy, working full time plus other ministries I am involved in, I end up with little time to blog.

I have found myself going back and forth between wanting more and extreme gratefulness. It is summer...people are going on vacations, stay-at-home mommies are with their children all of the time, etc... And I admit, I am struggling with envy. I wish I didn't have to work, but I choose to work so my son can go to a Christian school...and a great one at that.

But on the other hand, I have been asking God to help me battle envy, and I find myself filled with extreme gratefulness. I have a soft bed to sleep on, a roof over my head, food, clothing, family, health. I am a spoiled American Christian. We have so much, and sometimes we forget that because we are too busy chasing after the newest gadget or buying the perfect house...or keeping up with the people around us.

Yet Scripture very clearly tells us to lay up our treasure in Heaven. So I guess I am taking a little personal inventory of how much I am actually laying up in Heaven instead of worrying about what I don't have here on earth.

God has entrusted me with many things...and to whom much is given, much is required. I want to be found faithful at the end. I just need an attitude check now and then.

2 comments:

Mrs Gina K said...

I know what you mean! Thanks for sharing! I wish we could go ahead & start our family, but I know that I'd have the envy you write about because we couldn't survive if I didn't work! Glad to "hear" from you & know that I think of you often & that I say a little prayer for you every now & then! ;) Monday's almost over! :)

katiecutehair said...

Hey Becks... I think that if we are honest each of us has an area we struggle with. And sometimes these things go through seasons. Recently the Lord has been talking to me about the fruits of the Spirit. I have to admit that I let circumstances around me act as vegitation killer in the garden of my heart... Things get stressful and I forget to be patient, loving , kind, joyful... the list goes on and on. Thankfully God is all of those things and each day he is making us more like him... Love you!